21 March 2010

late night thoughts

So, I'm sitting here at my computer at 11:33 p.m. Sunday night.

Church was great today - learned lots and enjoyed much fellowship. Came home and cleaned and even got to take a nap. Finished lots of laundry and other cleaning and enjoyed a snack and playtime with the boys. Got online to check my email and sales for the week and here I am now.

I have such a sick feeling in my stomach about this health care bill passing tonight. It was one of those things that I wanted to see but didn't want to see and wanted to talk about, but didn't. Sonny was very interested in seeing what happened tonight but I on the other hand, would rather hide away and pretend it's not even happening. I am ill for what it will do to our country, my family and friends, and my children and their future.

Just as the sick feeling of Obama becoming president came and slowly went, I know this one will too. It is what's happening and there is nothing I can do to change it. I would love to change it, to change many things, but God's will and way is perfect. He is allowing what is going on in the White House. He already knew this day would come. I must accept and keep focused on Jesus!

One of our sermons today was about "being not ashamed" as a Christian. It was very encouraging to me, especially on a day like today. I am not ashamed of Jesus, I am not ashamed to be an American, I am not ashamed to be pro-life and against the health care bill, etc. I can think of many things I am not ashamed of and in these last days, we as Christians need to step up and get all we can done for the Lord before His return.

Witnessing is easy for some and hard for others. For me, I can get very emotional and take it personal when they don't accept a tract or don't want to listen to what I have to say. I know not everyone will be saved but God knows who will and we just need to keep on going for Him. We need that childlike faith. Just think - with all that is going on in the world, right being wrong and vice versa, we know that He is coming soon! Rescue the perishing!

I will close with this saying that helps me through those tough witnessing times when I am afraid or emotional. Maybe it will help and encourage you!

"Dare to reach out your hand into the darkness
to pull another hand into the light."
Norman B. Rice

1 comment:

  1. Your thoughts are true for me too - all of them! Miss you lots.